Posted: March 31, 2015 in Looks

Welcome new and old visitors … my little deadspot … to me it gets more and more interesting with time, a weird place for u 2 land though. I always like it when the old spots have links to the new, so If you are interested in being friends with me, now, I’m linking a couple things:



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I have been making art in Los Angeles, Hawaii, New England, Rome, Venice, Sicily, and Istanbul. I am 21 years old. The makeup is plain now but my brain is rainbow.

Best wishes/Love/Truth/Happiness 4 u



Makeup, Art

Posted: April 5, 2013 in Dramatic, Looks, Miscellaneous


Ah! An update on a bit of the work that I’ve been doing in college!

Long story short, I am having the most incredible learning experience living away from home.  At art school, makeup is never far from my thoughts and I really enjoy every project that gives me the opportunity to be able to get in touch with what drew me to transformation and  costume in the first place.

Makeup really lives in this exciting ambiguous place between the second, third, and “fourth” dimesion – in applying makeup, we are working with primarily 2d materials, powders and pigments, to navigate the 3d plane of the face and body. Not only that, but every face is different and naturally occurring, making each look unique on a different person, both in aesthetics and meaning. If you consider your choice of face as a found material, you can also consider the way that face moves and the person behind it – what is their role and purpose for wearing it? The last thing that makes makeup so interesting is that it is temporary. This means that it shape-shifts with the occasion and then washes off, and you start over (even if you are using products with excellent staying power! haha!)

Back when I would update regularly, I remember discovering that this blog didn’t really attract attention because of the reviews, but mostly because of the zanier, “unwearable” looks I began creating. Frankly, this kind of confused me because I saw these looks as an alternative to doing what I considered to be serious art. I didn’t really get why anybody besides me would be fascinated by my personal creations on my personal, not-model face.  To me, tutorials for strange looks were frivolous, useless, and not even that great by my standard. I had no intention of becoming a makeup artist and I  simply did these looks because they were fun, and as an added bonus I could share them and get a little attention. I don’t know how to fully express the extent to which I just could not see what other people saw in it. It felt wrong for me to continue creating for an audience that I didn’t understand or respect. That is the reason why I stopped.

Back then, I don’t think I ever fully grasped what was so obvious: people are interested as makeup as a process, broken down, step by step, so that they can observe personal transformation as art form. People aren’t superficial or stupid for being interested by makeup. They like it because it truly is fascinating. It is process, it is performance, it is art, it is personal – all of these things and still extremely accessible. Or maybe extremely accessible because of all of these things. We all have identities, we all have a certain amount of control over them.  Makeup is an overt expression or visual metaphor for the choices we have in constructing these identities.

That said, even through my transition from high school to college, I wanted to preserve this blog because like any sort of historical record, I saw it operating as sort of a living and breathing witness to change. Back then, I was frequently encouraged to pursue makeup as a career. I couldn’t explain it back then, but I knew that even if I was talented, the truth was that I lacked the actual passion and respect for the medium that other guys and gals just have naturally. I decided not to return to makeup or this blog without that respect.

That said, I am grateful for the privilege to share my explorations in sculpture, painting, costume, and makeup with both new readers and whoever happens to be here still. Take a look!

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Natural Beauty

Posted: August 24, 2012 in Miscellaneous

One of the most common assumptions about people who choose to wear makeup is that they dislike their natural looks. Of course for many, this assumption holds true. It is what it is. I’m in no position to give advice on taking down insecurity, but I’d still like to explain my viewpoint on the war I see between natural and glamorous beauty. I believe that a love for your bare face and a love for your made-up face aren’t necessarily mutually exclusive.

The idea of beauty isn’t an absolute, innate sensibility – it is actually very malleable and expandable. What I mean by this is that we all have the capacity to grow an attraction to what we previously found unremarkable.

I personally like my face best in the 30 seconds after it’s been freshly washed, but I still wear makeup because I’m not certain that whoever looks at my bare face will see the same beauty that I do. As I mentioned earlier, beauty is learned – and due to our powerful media, contemporary ‘glamorous’ beauty is compulsory education. I simply expect a greater majority of people to read mascara + lipstick + whatever as visually pleasing. Is that bad? No! That’s just the way it is!

I really think that makeup should be approached like formal clothes, not necessarily more flattering than casual clothing, but worn at appropriate times in order to be outwardly presentable and visually interesting.

Review: Concrete Minerals

Posted: January 7, 2012 in Reviews and Swatches

The awesome promo card that comes with the order! (front and back)

Available: Concrete Minerals Website
Price: $6.99 for a full sized eyeshadow

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